For many, many years, I did tarot readings for the public from my reading site, http://www.tarotmoon.com. This was a lifeline for me at a time when my world was difficult – to be able to help others and access the wisdom in the cards. After I got divorced, I needed to focus on career again for a while, just to pay the bills, and took some time off from reading. I also felt a need to reorganize my readings, make them more focused on natural energies like the four elements and lunar cycles, and simplify the readings I was doing. And needless to say, I’ve picked up some nifty new decks in the meantime :)
Lately, I’ve been feeling that tug from the tarot again. I’ve redesigned my site to focus in on the best and most productive spreads I’ve used over 25 years, the ones that give the most insightful readings in nearly every circumstance. You’ll notice that most of them are small. I’ve found over the years that smaller, more focused readings can be just as good or better than large, sprawling readings that are time-consuming to conduct and difficult to take in and assimilate. Plus, they have the side advantage of being more affordable.
In addition, I’ve assembled a group of decks that I’ve found to be the most enjoyable to read with over the years, which should still provide plenty of variety so that everyone can find one that works for them. There are a number of different takes on “standard” decks, as well as a variety of nature-oriented decks, and a few eclectic and unique decks that may surprise you. Offerings include some newer decks like the Gaian Tarot, Tarot of the Crone, and Wizard’s Tarot. I hope you will join me there and see what’s on offer!
When I did a lot of tarot readings, I used to find they came in waves, not evenly dispersed in time. Often a new moon or full moon would trigger them, especially in certain signs. Other planetary conjunctions, or events in the world, could also trigger fear and anxiety. And then there are the times of year when people typically take stock of their lives and often had readings done – solstice, New Year, birthdays, and interestingly enough, the end of summer (early September).
Now I’m intrigued by similar waves of work in a less fun area – divorce mediations. This is something I do as a sideline to environmental mediations, because I’m trained for it and there’s no-one else in this area that offers it. In the last two days I’ve had a rash of requests for divorce mediations – and they want it now, not later. Looking at my handy lunabar, I see that it’s a waning moon in Gemini. Perhaps something about self-other came to a head recently and it’s time to let go? Interesting to speculate – any other ideas?
I’m not really sure. In February, I spent a whole month in New Zealand. At the time, I was feeling overwhelmed by a lot of things in my life, like as usual I had too much on my plate. One of my goals for the time away (far away!) on this vacation was to try to sort out what I should or wanted to do less of to bring my life back into balance. Oddly enough, it didn’t turn out to be what I expected. Writing for me has become something of a SHOULD. You know, as in “don’t should on yourself.” :)
I should write because I have one book 2/3 of the way finished and it’s been that way for years. And a great idea for a new book that I’ve started and is looking really good. And because people like what I write and I do it well, and… well, any number of should-like reasons. I realized that I wasn’t really feeling like writing right now, but it was part of my ego-complex that, being a Capricorn with tons of planets clustered around the midheaven, NEEDS to write and be acknowledged by the world. Bleah. That’s the last kind of reason I need for anything right now, and really hard to admit to myself, much less to you all!
One of my goals for this year was to be more social and live in the world more. I’m ready for a new relationship, and a bunch more friends. I’ve started some new activities in person, and all this along with a full workload make additional writing and time on the internet difficult and maybe even counter-productive to living a more full life. I do love writing and I know that the desire to write will come back someday. And in the meantime, I will occasionally post interesting stuff as the urge takes me, so if you are subscribed I hope you will continue to do so. Hopefully taking the pressure off will allow things to flow when they’re ready to. Please feel free to continue to use all the materials on the site as open-source for anything you’d like to do.
In the meantime, if you’re not already following them, I wanted to point out two recently initiated tarot blogs that are turning out to be just great. These blogs are not only deep and interesting, but consistent in ways that pointed out to me just how little I was managing to meet that standard :) I would highly recommend that you visit:
Llewellyn Unbound’s Tarot Pathways by Barbara Moore
Until next time… may the stars and the cards guide you well.
Last year was pretty rough for me, and I’m feeling the need to find new directions in a variety of areas of my life – or at least bring new energies to bear. I had an odd experience recently in that I gained back a year of my life – not really, but it feels that way. All last year I thought I was 46 – with a birthday on New Year’s Eve, it’s easy to miscalculate. Early this year I realized that I was still 46 :) It feels like a rare chance at a “do-over”, and I don’t want to blow it. Now the year is 1/3 gone already – I’ve had some great times this year, but perhaps not with the focus or direction I was hoping for.
This morning I decided to do something I’ve never really done with tarot cards – draw an elemental circle, something like a magickal circle. I’m really doing this in my mind with archetypal tarot cards, rather than with any specific deck. But as I go through the year, starting soon, I may draw upon these cards as significators for what I’m hoping to achieve, advisers if you will. I may ask them for guidance on the next step in reaching the goal personified by that card, and draw cards for an actual reading. Or I may just focus on the cards, and ask myself – what would they do, or recommend?
Here are my cards:
Earth: Knight of Pentacles – This element represents health to me, one of my biggest issues last year. My health has steadily improved, but I have a ways to go in diet and exercise and overall well-being, now that I am not prevented from these things by more serious problems. As I thought through the deck, I couldn’t imagine any card that more solidly represented a physical fit, healthy, youthful person. One of the things I like about this Knight is his methodical, planning-oriented approach to these issues. No fad diets or unsustainable goals for him – and on the flip side, determination and will-power with little inclination to slack off or be unreliable. If he needed to be in shape for something specific, you know he’d be ready when the time came. Besides, I get the impression that he’s less boring than he looks. If asked, he could come up with all kinds of creative approaches to meeting these goals.
Water: The Lovers – A long-term relationship has just ended that was perfect on a personal level and utterly impossible circumstantially. It was painful and difficult, but necessary for both of us. It’s hard to think about starting over, but I do feel that I have a clear sense of what I’m looking for. I have put The Lovers in this position not entirely because of the obvious meaning of the title – rather because of the more nuanced interpretations it has. I am looking for someone who is complimentary to me, not someone to lose myself in or vice versa. A relationship that is deeply committed, yet where each person has their own space (emotionally and physically). Where marriage is not the goal (many other cards could have been chosen for that), but a togetherness, understanding, and passion that may be stronger than exists in many marriages. This is a relationship where we constantly make choices about staying together, rather than trusting to vows or ties that may (or may not) bind, and that relies on communication and honesty, allowing for change.
Air: King of Swords – To me, this represents my work. Everything I do is airy – writing, modeling, editing, teaching, communicating, mediating. Yet right now, I don’t feel it is particularly organized or functional. I always get done what has to be done, kind of like triage – but there are always things nagging at me that I believe at least that I want to be doing, such as writing the books that are currently not getting written on this site. Work and personal and health issues have prevented that – or so I tell myself. Is there more I need to know about my own motivation, organization, will-power when it comes to things that I have a choice to do? Somehow I feel the King of Swords can help my cut through all this *** and get to the root of the problem. He won’t pull any punches, he can bring structure and order to my thought processes and perhaps help me find some internal dedication. He won’t hesitate to provide needed criticism and guidance, and maybe I can learn something from how he got to where he is.
Fire: Knight of Wands – I struggled with what part of my life this element represents for a while. It’s not my career. That is going along just fine and I could truly care less about any further advancement there. Passion goes in the Lovers category above. Finally, I realized that it is my social life – what there is of it. My only real goal when this year started was to get out and be more social – find things in the community I like to do and go do them. There’s no lack of things like this in Olympia, that’s a large part of why I moved here. It just takes a little effort, especially when I don’t necessarily have anyone to go with – all the more reason, as this is the only way I’m ever going to meet anyone (outside of work) who shares my interests. So, I thought of the Knight of Wands. He’s very social, energetic, charismatic, and not afraid to have new adventures. In fact, he seeks them out, which is what I’d like to do. In recent years, I’ve learned to take more risks in life because of the fantastic experiences you can gain. He seems to embody that philosophy – sure there are risks, but better to truly live life than to let it pass you by – the biggest risk of all.
Spirit: The Star – This card seems to embody all the ways in which I am most at peace. Being out in nature is essential; being connected to the earth and to the universe, and to each moment of passing time. To live in the now and appreciate the sunlight and drops of rain on the flowering trees, the feeling of a cat purring in your lap, a quiet moment with your lover. Honesty and openness are my guide, and belief that whatever comes is meant for some reason. The more I am present and capable of accepting and responding to the gifts of life, the more I will be at peace.
So these are my guiding cards, my advisors and significators. It hasn’t escaped my notice that two are majors and three are court cards. I didn’t plan it this way, but worked on each card and element individually. The majors don’t surprise me – these are big changes and issues. The courts are fascinating. Not only that there are so many, but that none of them are ones that I have ever associated with myself. There is a lot of male energy here, and a youthful energy in the Knights. Physical energy overall is something I need more of, and so perhaps this reflects that desire. Maybe I just need to hear some new voices :) It will be interesting to hear what they have to say.
I’ve been busily posting away about my adventures in New Zealand, and am just getting organized enough to begin thinking about tarot and astrology again. Over on Comparative Tarot, we’re talking about the Four of Cups. While this card may bring to mind dissatisfaction and ennui, it can also be a good suggestion to slow down and check in with your emotions. Spring has sprung (one of the advantages of going on a month-long vacation far away), and it’s a perfect time to sit on a park bench and admire the cherry blossoms, while contemplating whatever there is that needs attention in your life. I’ve written more about this process in a recent chapter in my new Living the Tarot book, if this is something that resonates with you.
In the meantime, the Vernal Equinox is upon us! After the long dreary winter of rain, snow, dark, and cold, it’s a nice thought that the days will be getting longer and warmer from here on out. Saturday is the day – in the morning, the Moon will be in Taurus, and mid-morning, the Sun will move into Aries – strengthening our emotional/physical connections to the earth and garden and our energetic enthusiasm for activity and new beginnings. A good time to plant some seedlings, prune and weed to make way for new growth. Once the garden is all nice and tidy, a void of course moon in the afternoon may encourage lazy enjoyment of spring blossoms, without any particular need to get anything done. The moon moves into Gemini in the early evening and makes positive aspects to a number of other planets, setting the stage for a social night out (or in), filled with conversation and friendship.
Sounds like a wonderful way to start the new vernal year!
I’m away through March 5 in New Zealand, with limited access to the internet. I’ll blog more when I return. In the meantime, I will be posting trip reports as time and internet access allow at my personal blog. Talk to you soon!
Here is an interesting aspect, occurring Jan 18-27. With the Sun trine Saturn, there is an easy flow of energy between the self and responsibilities, structures, and other necessary activities. If you found it hard to make progress on New Year’s resolutions or life goals at the actual New Year, it may be easier at this time to establish these good habits and put into place needed and positive structural changes, especially if your birthday falls in this period.
Here are some tarot cards you could draw for this transit to help guide your personal activities in response to this positively aspected Saturn energy:
1. What structure would be most beneficial to add to my life right now?
2. What responsibilities could I productively step up and take care of right now?
3. What benefits would this bring over the coming year?
Choose whichever one of the first two seems to best apply, then use the third question to help add even more motivation by highlighting the possible results.
With this post, I’m starting a series looking at astrological transits and/or aspects and how tarot can be used to put these astrological energies to good use. I’ll post and discuss a particular event that’s going on either currently or in the next few days, along with related questions that can be used with a simple 1-3 card tarot reading. I hope you’ll post the results of your readings in the comments section – if there’s enough interest in doing this regularly we can start a discussion group.
It seemed fitting to start this series with Jupiter entering Pisces today, January 17, until June 5. Jupiter is the planet of fortune, expansiveness, and prosperity, and for those of us who make all or part of our living in areas related to Pisces and the 12th house, this period may provide a particularly beneficial opportunity for new and creative endeavors. Anyone who works in areas relating to spirituality, creativity, the occult, or hidden matters of the mind (e.g., psychologists) or spirit may benefit. There could also be a focus on charitable work and ways of recreating economies that reflect our personal and spiritual values.
One aspect that will need to be overcome for many of us is building a belief that our particular gifts are worth being monetarily compensated for, and that it’s acceptable to make a living, even a good living, using them. Pisces may suffer from self-doubt or lack of self-esteem, although Jupiter can help bring a much-needed positive and confident outlook to counter that. Jupiter also brings fiery energy to jump-start plans that may have been swirling around in the back of our minds for a while without materializing.
There are also challenges during this period. One should take care not to fall under the sway of illusory influences or economic schemes that are shifty or not on solid ground. There could be a dreamy, unrealistic quality to plans or ideas for money-making, especially daydreams of easy money. Alcohol and other temptations can derail the best-laid plans. Sticking to a sound business plan while also holding true to our spiritual values provides the surest path forward in creating a more rewarding personal economy.
With all of the above in mind, and also keeping firmly in mind the time period within which we’re working, you may wish to draw a single tarot card for each of these questions (feel free to choose other questions if you prefer):
1) How can I best use the Jupiter in Pisces energy to increase my personal wealth/income in a way consistent with my spiritual values?
2) What pitfalls or challenges are most likely to be of concern for me personally in doing so?
Here are my results with the Tarot of Dreams:
1) Four of Coins, reversed. This is an interesting message that I interpret as not being afraid to spend money – not hoarding or saving in fear of not having enough. I should not have too structured of a plan that limits me from moving in new directions, particularly out of fear or concern for the future or financial stability. Jupiter is an expansive, generous energy, and during this time at least, I can afford to give my gifts to the world and spend money to make money. There are opportunities I could miss if I am too conservative.
2) Queen of Coins, reversed. Two reversed cards in Coins suggests to me that my focus needs to be less about money and how to plan for it and obtain it, less focus on material things in general (which will ultimately create what I need in this area). I spent most of last year tending to my house and business in very material ways, and I need to go in new directions this year. The Queen of Pentacles is my natural sign, with many planets in Capricorn near the midheaven, so I need to resist the temptation to continue with being the same person I always am and doing the same things I always do, and let other parts of myself take the fore.
This was an interesting New Year’s period for Capricorns, astrologically speaking. The Sun and Mercury were conjunct from Jan 1-5, and Mercury was retrograde. Now, I personally think that the Solstice-New Year’s period is always a bit more meaningful for us Cappys – it comes right at our birthdays, emphasizing reflection on the past year and looking forward toward the coming year. Being an Earth sign, we feel the stillness of mid-winter that is solstice deeply, the fallowness of the earth, the inward being in the darkness and then reaching out again toward the light.
But this year, we had this added factor. People tend to moan and groan at Mercury retrograde, but let’s take a more careful look. Mercury is the planet of expression and thought. It’s the thinking part of our brain, ruling Gemini and Virgo. Sure, there can be all kinds of screw-ups with transportation, technology, and communication. But leaving that aside for a moment, it’s also an excellent time to rethink, re-evaluate, re-imagine our lives. Kind of like a New Year’s resolution, only better. Rather than reaching out to communicate outwardly, we’re thinking inwardly and communing with ourselves, perhaps with that deep still part of the mind that Mercury doesn’t always sit still enough to listen to.
Add to that the conjunction with the Sun in our sign. So, what are we thinking about, re-evaluating, re-imagining? Our outward selves – what we project to the world, what we show everyone of ourselves. For a Capricorn, that’s serious business indeed. And interestingly, I saw several of my fellow Cappies posting in this period about exactly this – starting a new career, rededicating themselves to walking their walk and being successful at it, and other plans of that nature.
Myself, I felt somewhat fallow in this period. I have reached most of my life goals from the last 5 years over the last year, and wasn’t sure I was ready to make new ones. However, just as this period was ending, I felt it all come together and I realized what my next process needs to be – outwardly focused yes, but perhaps more personal than usual for my goals.
I’d love to hear from other Capricorns and see if this rings true for you :)
Here it is, nearing the new year, my birthday, and a full moon in Cancer – a blue moon no less. The other day my Mother and I were talking about the difference between blogging and journaling, the first something you do to share your thoughts with the world, and the second when you want to keep them private. My moon in Cancer is one of the few signs in the bottom half of my astrological chart, and its times like these where I have a hard time talking about the emotional landscape inside. It feels too private to share. At least I’m not shedding tears, which is the usual effect of a full moon in Cancer on me!
My mom has most of her planets in the bottom half of her chart, while most of mine are clustered around the midheaven. This may explain my preference for blogging – if it isn’t getting out into the world somehow, the purpose of writing somehow escapes me; it feels like an empty exercise. A friend drew a reversed Knight of Wands for my birthday, and she was talking about two possible interpretations – perhaps an inner journey of personal seeking or growth… or maybe just a warning about the type of guy to avoid! LOL. I told her I wasn’t sure I was capable of inner journeys :) and I surely do need to avoid that type of man and that type of relationship for a change. It’s not that I don’t grow and change personally, I just somehow don’t see it as internal. It has to affect my outer life too, because that’s how I gauge how my life is going.
Yet, there is that lone Moon in Cancer in my fourth house, that opposes a bunch of the stuff up in the 10th. So, there is that tendency I have to withdraw at times when things get emotionally intense, as they have been for most of the fall. This is one reason you haven’t seen me as much as I planned to be writing, because the only things I really wanted and needed to think and write about couldn’t be said.
But now it’s a new year, and a new life ahead. The one thing I love about this time of year is solstice, the deep stillness that seems to last all through the holidays for me, because I don’t celebrate the commercial ones much and work is slow. That silence and time for reflection every year is so essential to my well-being, as I know it is for many. I wish you all deep peace and renewal in this turning of the year.